Saturday, January 29, 2005

Integrating Interest With Work?

Was chatting with a fren abt this topic which I found quite interesting as I gave it more tot. Pple always say that having the chance to work in a field where ur interest lies is the best kind of job. I gave it some tot, n shortlisted what my interest can get me as a job.

1) I can be a basketball player.

2) I can be a video game tester. (Play games all day, sounds like good? keke)

3) I can be a car/bike racer. (This stems from the fact that i like driving n riding) I guess u could say I can be a chaffeur as well then.

4) I can be a singer/actor. (I think nobody knows this but I've always wanted to perform)

5) I can be a Sentosa beach patroller. (Just an excuse to be a beach bum)

6) I can be a gigolo. (it's obvious what I like here rite? haha)

7) I can be an archealogist/paleontologist. (I feel like an old geek here)

8) I can be a historian.

9) I can be a movie/book critic.

10) I can be a pool player or bowler.

11) I can be a wrestler. (In Singapore????)

12) I can be a club/pub manager. (Since I like nite life so much)

13) I can be a police. (Somehow, Lewis & Eugene got this idea from somewhere that my childhood ambition is to be a policeman)

14) I can be a soldier. (War movies always touched me in some ways)

15) I can be a psychologist. (I can read pple's mind =P)

16) I can be a short dist runner. (Nobody's gonna believe this but my event is 100m. Think will have to shed some weight first, though in my heart I always believe I can still do it. haha)

17) I can be a food tester.

18) I can be a cartoonist. (Drawing's not really my field here, just that at a moment in time was inspired to draw, after watching Titanic)

19) I can be a physicist. (Think all the Michael Crichton books have gotten to me)

20) I can be a ship's captain. (This is the ideal job for me after doing a test which matches ur personality traits with ur job scope. Don't ask me why)

As u would probably realise, this list is crap. Unless i'm a dreamer, I dun see myself being any of the above. 4 yrs in NTU really change my thinking a lot, in ways that I din even realise. It made me a really practical person now, no longer the dreamer I was when I was younger. So what will be the most likely job for me?

21) Engineer.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Fading Memories

I am happy recently. Is it because of her? Cos we've been talking again. Actually, our 2 week relationship is already starting to blur in my mind. Time really washes away everything, whether u want it to or not. But I guess I did want time to heal me that time, well, u've got to want to get well in order to get well right? As i always said..... I suddenly tot of sth I said to eugene in ages past. "Y do I have to suffer for 1 yr for that few weeks of happiness we had together?" That was really long ago. JC 2. I guess I din want to suffer this kind of self-despair anymore this time.

Going.... going.... but nv gone. I guess this will be the way for me, for the time being at least. I woke early today, was fidgeting with my exoskeleton on Solidworks when Shania Twain's You've Got A Way suddenly blared from my WinAmp. Suddenly I can feel memories floating back into my head, scenes from that nite. How she lay in my arms, how I held her and kiss her when this song was playing. "I too lost in you". Does she mean me? Or was it refering to him?

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Rod Stewart

Heard this song on Gold 90 the other day which caught my heart. Its a number by rod stewart. The DJ said sth funny abt him, "Every time I hear him sing, I have an irresistible urge to clear my throat'.

I Don't Want To Talk About It
I can tell by your eyes that you've probably been crying forever
And the stars in the sky don't mean nothing to you, they're a mirror
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen to my heart, whoa heart
If I stand all alone will the shadow hide the color of my heart
Blue for the tears, black for the night's fears
The star in the sky they don't mean nothing to you, they're a mirror
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen to my heart, whoa heart
I don't want to talk about it how you broke this old heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen to my heart, whoa heart
My heart, whoa heart

Monday, January 24, 2005

Painting The Town Red Again

I guess the 3rd installment of "andy's guide to getting over someone" will have to be delayed. Not in the kind of mood to discuss getting over someone this few weeks. Maybe cos I've been going out a lot more since eugene came back, interacting with more pple, n it generally puts me in a happier mood.

I went clubbing with eugene & weian on thur at chinablack. Some NUS bash going on. Weian actually introduced us to some of his gal frens. haha. Unfortunately I spoiled the nite as I KO pretty soon. Dunno who's bright idea it was to bring vodka n drink b4 we went inside. We downed the vodka with sprite at the Mac outside b4 we went back in. Actually I was still feeling pretty fine when we were inside waiting for weian who got stuck in the re-entry queue. Still fine when weian went to get dunno how many jugs for the grp. Still fine when we went downstairs n stood on the edge of the dancefloor. It was when they started to move inside the crowd into the dancefloor that I start to blur. Suddenly I couldn't see them in front of me anywhere. I had to get eugene to bring me out of the dancefloor and we eventually ended up outside chinablack with me puking my guts out. I was still consciously aware of what i'm doing n even tot of going back in again. But sometimes the mind is willing but the body is weak. =( So no choice but for eugene to see me home. What a ending to a good nite's out. I've nv drink till I puke so badly b4, not since the SOC chalet lah... haha.

Miraculously, I din wake with a splitting headache the next day. keke. We went Party World at Orchard the next day, with wensong, joey, cuixia, shuling, fengmin n her.... eh.... fren. Met up for dinner with the gang for dinner after that, lewis, jon & shuling. Hui supposed to join us too but couldn't make it in the end when we changed the venue.

I always do stupid things when I drink. In 2001, I called weiling after drinking at black. In 2002, I went up to gillian at zouk n told her how much I liked her. This time I did sth silly again. I sms princess n told her I missed her terribly. Like how she used to say she miss me. I din expect her to reply, but she did. She was surprised that I msg her sth like that, that she even asked if I got the rite number.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Andy's Guide To Getting Over Someone (Part 2)

Ok, here's the real deal. I'll summarise my guide in 3 main pts.

1. Out of sight, out of mind.
2. Mind over matter
3. Time heals all wounds

4. (optional) Get someone new

Out of sight, out of mind.
I personally employed this method in the incident with Miss G. (all identities r classified to lessen embarrasment for myself) There r 2 scenarios to this. Scenario 1, u get to see the gal everyday or on a regular basis, inevitably. May be due to same sch, same workplace, etc. Scenario 2, u dun get to see the gal at all unless its thru intentional means. Eg: u have to ask her out, or u r stalking her, etc. Scenario 1 would be a more sticky situation. My advice is to avoid her at all cost. I repeat, VERY intentional avoiding.

If u know she will be in place A, then u better go to place B.
If u know she will be at place A n u r suppose to be at place A, dun go.
If u r at place A n u happen to see her at place A, pretend u did not see her n leave place A fast.
If u r at place A n u happen to see her at place A n she knows u have seen her, do not acknowledge her. leave place A after that.

This might seem like the cowards' way out. But if it works, i do not care whether u call me a coward or a wimp or a yellow-bellied duck-billed platypus.

On to scenario 2. If u r in scenario 2, u r pretty much in a LPPL situation. In this age of modern technology, seeing someone is not the only way u can communicate with her. Other ways of communication include hp, sms, online, psychic telepathy, etc.

If u need to ask her out in order to see her, then simply dun ask her out.
If u r stalking her, go play Metal Gear Solid 3 instead. It's much more interesting.
Do not attempt to communicate with her via any non verbal forms of communication like sms, msn, icq, irc.

Self restraint is the key here. I remember I was studying in nus with eugene that time, on the 2nd storey of the computing block, when was Miss G walking pass below on her way home. My first impulse is to pick up my hp n sms her. As my hand reach out for the hp, it stopped in midair, n i asked myself "what good will it do if I told her I'm here?". It wun make any difference at all. Just like the "how have u been?" or "how r u recently?" or anything along this line msgs that u've been wanting to send her. It wun make any difference. period.

To be continued...

Andy's Guide To Getting Over Someone (Part 1)

"How To Mend A Broken Heart". That was the title of the book that min was reading when we just broke up. I went back to Sig Park to collect my things, n i saw the book lying by the the bedside table. I picked it up n the title gave me a shock. It broke my heart to see her reading sth like this. Regrets. Y din i apologise to her and make everything fine back then, when obviously she still meant so much to me. Ok, on to the main topic for today:

Andy's Guide To Getting Over Someone

Step 1 : Give urself a slap in the face and tell urself to wake up ur idea. (If u can't do the slapping part, get a fren to do it for u)

Step 2 : Refer to Step 1

Step 3 : Refer to Step 2

Step 4 : Refer to Step 3

Step 5 : You really dun get it, do u? Ok, sth for a change. Try the infamous 'bang ur head against the wall' method employed by daf's ex-bf. (Note: Gals, do not attempt to stop this move as u will end up with a fractured finger, which u will lie abt by saying u caught it in a door)

Step 6 : Seems u r really in quite a fix, aren't u? See me! (Written in red, like how ur pri sch teacher would write on ur report card)

Notice i left out the 'jump off a building' option. Highly discouraged. If u really wish to do that, make sure it look like an accident or foul play is involved. Easier to claim insurance.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Defecting To Samsung?

Hmmmm... the first weekend of the new sem, n what could i be doing? Yeah, i'm at home. It's been a rainy day anyway, was thinking of going to get a new hp. Thinking of signing up with a new line from Starhub so i can get the hp at a cheap price. I changed my M1 plan last nite also finally, to SunTalk 150. Someone some time ago has lamented at how i always said i wana change my hp plan but nv get it done. Well, finally got it done. Now just deciding between 3 phones to get. 2 Samsung n 1 Panasonic. Haven been keeping in touch with hp models for some time, no idea what r their model numbers. Just a matter of whether i wana part with $198, $148 or $138.

Yest was fri n i was talking to michi online after sch. I told her that i was going to ask someone out later, n that most prob i will end up asking michi to go lim jiu with me that nite, becos the someone will not wana see me. I haven had a good nite's out for a long time already. Since eugene went to the states, I have cut down on clubbing, not cos i want to but more like no choice. Used to club quite often with him and his gang of frens, malcolm, wensong, cuixia and co, and even earlier when it'll be the 3 of us : lewis, eugene & me. Had some pretty unforgettable clubbing memories together, like how we got to know daf, cas & sharon, and also adeline n xinyi.
malcolm & cas got together after that, n its a pretty good feeling how we helped put 2 individuals together.

Eugene will be back soon, n i hope we will revive the party, get it started again. 1 more sem of nite life b4 finally graduating n moving on to sth better. haha. Looking forward to seeing u bro. We will rock the world again. =)

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Touch Of Nostalgia

nostalgia : a bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past

Its the start of sch term again, but somehow I was like a bit rusty despite being only away for a mth or so. The first lec was so hard to get by, the 1 hr seem exceptionally long, n i have to check my hp for the time on numerous occasions. The moment I enter LT 1, certain feelings come creeping back to me. I think somehow, princess has entered my life and made an impact so silently and deeply that even I failed to recognise it. I was suddenly reminded of the numerous heat transfer lecs that i attended last sem but with my mind on the comp in the lib, can't wait to get back to it sooner to chat with Princess on msn. Even little details like this, I can't seem to forget.

I had a lousy dream this morning. In it, I was on board a bus with hanxi. We were sitting in the front and at the back, there were princess and a guy and another gal with no identities. It was quite obvious they were a couple. Then hanxi was trying to console me, asking me to take it easy. I was trying to convince myself that I was alrite and not affected by it. But I knew I was not alrite, and I even flare up at him for keep trying to get me to get over it. Senseless dream? It might be, it might not be. When has dreams ever make sense anyway?

She talk to me on New Year Eve. I was a bit surprised, din expect her to talk to me. Our conversation went towards the topic of the tsunami and I told her I might have lost a fren. She said she knew cos she read my blog. Maybe she read abt it and think she shd console me or sth. Actually I dun even expect her to still read my blog. Be it what it might be, I think I'll live.

Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
Hey Jude, don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you'll begin to make it better

Went shopping with vivian after sch today. It wasn't an arranged thing though, just happen to know that she's going town today also. Then we just went down together as I need to get myself a pair of shoes. Sth that intrigued me while we were in the midst of shopping. She suddenly mention sth abt my gf, asking if we got go beach or sth. Since when did i have a gf??? I wondered what made her think that way. Maybe cos I told her I'm meeting a fren for dinner later, and she just assumed its my gf. Well, I was only meeting Lewis....

Saturday, January 01, 2005

New Year

Happy New Year everyone.

I'm back.