Monday, April 26, 2010

Shanghai Dolly

I have been hanging out at Shanghai Dolly quite a lot recently, ever since the incident with Fate. Been there on Wed, Fri and Sat nites. It doesn't help that 1 of the singers there look uncannily like her. And when she sings 感动天感动地, i'll always be reduced to a wreck.

I quite like the atmosphere there, similar to Dragonfly, and I guess this is where all the Dragonfly crowd went. The crowd is kinda ah beng or rather, lao beng though. (Yea, lao beng like me) But Eugene's going Shanghai for the next couple of mths, so 1 less khaki to hang out at Dolly for the next few months.

Been talking to JZ online quite a lot recently, mainly coz of my incident with Fate. I've been in a rather foul mood at work for the past 2 weeks. My temper's been rather short lately, and I kind of flared up at her last week. I knew she's angry immediately after I scolded her, and AML msn me to confirm it. I think if it were me in the past, I would just like it be and heck the relationship. But somehow I went out during lunchtime to get flowers and card for her to apologize. I guess she mean something to me afterall.

I have not taken anyone into confidence for a long time, much less a colleague. But if I'm still not going to talk to someone abt it, I think I'll burst.

感动天感动地

Every heartbreak has a song. I guess this is it.

感动天感动地

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易
所以没有经过允许就把你放心底
直到后来有一天你和他走在一起
我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息


Friday, April 16, 2010

Wretched Life

Welcome Wretched Life, once again, all over again, this is it again.

For how long have I seek to avoid this feeling, so much so that whenever I'm gonna sink it, I always pull myself out. Coz I know this all too familiar miserable feeling, know it too well I should say.

Why did you hold me back when I wanted to leave, knowing full well that you're gonna get attached soon? Why.

There's just so much frustration in me, consuming me. What do you want of me now? How can I still look at you without feeling the ache in my heart? I know heart ache. There is really such a thing as heart ache. It feels as though your heart is being squeezed, gripped by the hands of fate and given a tight squeeze. I experienced it years ago.

I'm paying the price again, but I'll see the light again.

I believe I have earned the right to leave.

"Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I've been acting lately
Has been off the wall"