Monday, April 26, 2010

Shanghai Dolly

I have been hanging out at Shanghai Dolly quite a lot recently, ever since the incident with Fate. Been there on Wed, Fri and Sat nites. It doesn't help that 1 of the singers there look uncannily like her. And when she sings 感动天感动地, i'll always be reduced to a wreck.

I quite like the atmosphere there, similar to Dragonfly, and I guess this is where all the Dragonfly crowd went. The crowd is kinda ah beng or rather, lao beng though. (Yea, lao beng like me) But Eugene's going Shanghai for the next couple of mths, so 1 less khaki to hang out at Dolly for the next few months.

Been talking to JZ online quite a lot recently, mainly coz of my incident with Fate. I've been in a rather foul mood at work for the past 2 weeks. My temper's been rather short lately, and I kind of flared up at her last week. I knew she's angry immediately after I scolded her, and AML msn me to confirm it. I think if it were me in the past, I would just like it be and heck the relationship. But somehow I went out during lunchtime to get flowers and card for her to apologize. I guess she mean something to me afterall.

I have not taken anyone into confidence for a long time, much less a colleague. But if I'm still not going to talk to someone abt it, I think I'll burst.

感动天感动地

Every heartbreak has a song. I guess this is it.

感动天感动地

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易
所以没有经过允许就把你放心底
直到后来有一天你和他走在一起
我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息


Friday, April 16, 2010

Wretched Life

Welcome Wretched Life, once again, all over again, this is it again.

For how long have I seek to avoid this feeling, so much so that whenever I'm gonna sink it, I always pull myself out. Coz I know this all too familiar miserable feeling, know it too well I should say.

Why did you hold me back when I wanted to leave, knowing full well that you're gonna get attached soon? Why.

There's just so much frustration in me, consuming me. What do you want of me now? How can I still look at you without feeling the ache in my heart? I know heart ache. There is really such a thing as heart ache. It feels as though your heart is being squeezed, gripped by the hands of fate and given a tight squeeze. I experienced it years ago.

I'm paying the price again, but I'll see the light again.

I believe I have earned the right to leave.

"Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I've been acting lately
Has been off the wall"

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Fate again?

I think the blogosphere has grown a bit foreign for me. I rem the time when only my frens actually view and leave comments on my entries. But I've gotten numerous comments for my previous Fate entry. This just seemed so weird??? I feel kinda exposed. haha.

Anyway, for the benefit of those who are wondering, I did go out with her for a few more times. It's usually something short like a simply dinner after work. Well, we'll see how it goes.

I just got back from Jakarta. The trip was for business, as the president of a certain country is supposed to visit Jakarta. It got postponed while I was there, essentially making it a wasted trip in the business sense. Personally, all the better for me since I get a free trip. =)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Fate

After what seemed like forever, I think I finally went out on a date again.

It wasn't supposed to be a date initially i think, just hanging out for coffee or sth. End up she has not had dinner yet, and I was kinda at a lost at where to take her for dinner. FYI, I have not taken a gal out in the dating sense, for at least 2 years. My knowledge of nice places to visit are all at least 2 years old, and if fortunate, still standing.

So at the last min, I pulled Dempsey Road out of my top hat. I think a few yrs ago, not many pple would have heard of Dempsey Road, but it seems like common knowledge now. Turns out she's been to the Ben & Jerry at Dempsey before. Anyway, I took her to Oosh which has not failed to impress before (I only ever took 1 gal there b4 and she was impressed. Still that counts as 1 out of 1 rite?), until that nite. Turns out the outdoor section is closed, i guess due to it being Sunay nite, and we got an indoor seat with a "nice window view" but it was nite and we basically can't see shit. The food was bad. Little and tasteless. There goes Oosh as the secret weapon.

We went over to Ben & Jerry for waffles after that. Quaint little (actually it was quite big) place which sells a bit of everything. There's a small counter selling t-shirts n other nonsense, a bar counter, a live band section, n of coz ice-cream. It was still early after Ben & Jerry, so we drove to Holland V where we had a bit of drinks at Wala Wala. She told me quite a lot about herself, her past relationships, family, etc

We left at ard midnite and I drove her home. Was thinking that I shd give her a goodnite kiss, like how it always happened in the shows but just dun know how to go abt doing it. I wanted to walk her up (but it'll be weird to kiss her outside her door anyway), but she said it wasn't necessary. And the angle's a bit weird to attempt a kiss in the car as well. So end up with just a "goodbye and seeya again" kinda stuff. Lame.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I'm Back

Hi guys, i'm back... 2010