Have you ever found urself in a position where u r with a whole grp of pple partying, having fun, basically just having a good time, and then u were suddenly reminded that you actually dun know much abt the majority of the pple and they r pple whom u just got to know. And in ur mind's eye, u wonder aloud "What the fuck m I doing here?" Not in a bad way, but just the incredulous feeling that you r genuinely having fun, but with pple who r slightly a bit more than strangers.
Ever since I started working, I found myself being in this position more and more. Not cos of work of coz; coz of the activities I joined after I started work. Mainly salsa. The rate of my social circle growth is expanding at an exponential rate ever since salsa. Sth I enjoy is the camaderie with the grp. That you have a regular grp of pals available for various activities.
I sense I may get expelled from the grp soon. It might just be my paranoia, knowing that I'm in a position of social taboo currently, being seemingly interested in Serene. Is she really just a distraction? I seriously doubt anything might blossom between us, given the intense competition and the bottomline being she is attached, though I dun hear much regarding the supposed bf. He seems missing in action. I haven done salsa at union in a long time. But I asked Serene to dance. If she isn't special, I dunno who is. I dun feel I'm being unethical, if she will like me, she will. If she chooses someone else, I'll accept it.
It might not even be a good idea to pen this down, not knowing if anyone in the salsa grp might be reading this. Like the shock I have when I realised Michelle (colleague) is reading my blog.
But heck, so be it. I'm know to be above concerns of social and peer views. I'm an island anyway.