Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Ugly Singaporeans

Couple of weeks back, I happen to be an unfortunate witness (as well as participant) in what I would consider a typical event which exemplifies Singaporeans' high "civic and moral values" on the MRT on my way to work. It's also a good example of how some pple uses the ass to think instead of the brain.

The scene was early morning 6plus, in a crowded MRT cabin, I was dozing happily on the 2nd seat to the last, the last being the one where there r labels indicating "Pls give way to the elderly or the disabled" pasted above it. All the seats r taken, n at the next stop, in walks who else but a pregnant lady.

I do a quick scan of the surrounding; no seats available; no one looks as though they r willing to give up their seats anytime soon; the pregnant lady is gradually positioning herself near me. Finally, she stopped and stood in front of the guy sitting beside me (The 3rd seat to the last). Still no one made a move. I quickly shut the thin slit that my eyes r looking out from and go back to sleep. (Yes, I'm an ugly Singaporean)

After 1 stop, I opened up a thin slit of my eyes to survey the surrounding. The pregnant lady is still standing at where she was. No one made a move yet. A quick peek to the left and right reveals that both guys were sleeping. The guy on the last seat had his head leaning against the glass panel somemore. Just when I closed my eyes again, I heard a guy clearing his throat loudly. It was this uncle who's standing in front of the guy in the last seat. Obviously he was trying to display his civic-minded-ness.

After a series of "ahem", I must assumed that still no one moved. Because what came next was this: Uncle decided to blast his radio at full blast. An orbit chinese song (not exactly sure who's the singer, but sounds like someone who's past his prime and went into retirement, only to realise he had run out of money, n so is trying a comeback) blared out from a mini radio that he is carrying at full volume.

Now this irritated me. So Uncle has decided that he must play hero and shame those who refuse to give up their seat for the pregnant lady. I took another quick peek to my sides. The guy with his head on the glass din even flinch. So now all the 'sleeping' passengers would attempt to be even more convincing that they r truly asleep. So if Uncle Heroic was looking for effect, he had just lost it completely. Which 'sleeping' guy would at this moment stand up and offer the lady her seat with the whole train's eyes on them?

Well, I dunno, maybe cos I'm a result-oriented person, that's y I felt this way; that Uncle Heroic just destroyed what he hopes to achieve thru a rather dumb plan. Should he really feel so strongly abt this, shdn't he just tap on the shoulder of a 'sleeping' guy and ask him to offer his seat to the pregnant lady? More often than not, the guy would likely give up his seat, albeit not necessarily willingly. So seeing that his 'ingenius' plan din even cause a stir, Uncle Heroic has no choice but to tone down the volume of his radio to a lower but still highly irritable level.

Moral of the story: Some pple dun use brain. Most Singaporeans are not ugly (This is actually the first time that I witness no one giving up their place to a pregnant or elderly person) I could probably give 101 reasons to explain y I did not offer my seat, but then again... let's just say that I'm an ugly Singaporean n get it over n done with. =P

Monday, August 28, 2006

Ignorance No More

"I kiss you because I like you."

"Huh? Suddenly u msg me tis dun scare me leh.."

"I know you know all along, but u just choose to not know."

"Sometime certain is better not to noe. Dun u think else it will b v odd esp when u noe i got bf"

"Good nite..."

"Good Nite :-)"

Monday, August 14, 2006

Feigning Ignorance

Today she asked me what does the kiss mean. I dunno how to ans her.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Retro Nite At Dbl O

Hmm... Audrey commented that my blog is a sad blog. Sad to say, I've to agree with what she said. =(

I started this blog cos I dun usually confide in frens abt my heartaches. So decide to pen it down here before the bottle burst... hehe. But I guess that must change. I'm different from the me in 2004, when I started this blog. I'm so much of a happier person now. I think I really have too much negative feelings trapped in me the past few yrs. Especially the 2 yrs following my break-up with Min. I got so much hatred in me that I couldn't even start a relationship proper.

So for a start, let's make this a happy entry. To date, I've not had an enjoyable time at Double O. But yest nite makes all the diff. It was Regina's birthday celebration at Dbl O, and initially few of us Supplies guys were supposed to go down. Then Joe and Melvin decide not to go, n Agatha said she's gonna reach quite late. So while I was on the train down, I decide to try to beat the 9pm cover charge at Union and sneak down for a short while. I knew Serene prob wun be there, cos she told me she's watching fireworks. Well I tot I wouldn't even be seeing her for this weekend. Haven seen her since she came back from Bintan. She asked me to go down to Terence's place on fri nite, but in the end I din go. I also can't explain y I refuse. I badly wanted to see her, but I guess I just din want it to take place at Terence's place.

So I hung ard at Union for a short while and then took a cab down to Dbl O. Then she sms me asking me where I'll be. I told her I'll be at Dbl O n asked her if she wana join me, to which she surprisingly agreed. So I spent the initial part of the nite playing games with Regina n gang, anxiously awaiting her arrival. Somehow, deep in the pits of my heart I've a nagging feeling that she'll just call it off n said she's not coming. But somehow, she came. =)

Oh.. and another thing. I finally found a place with my era type of music on a sat nite. Retro all the way. Yeah! Quite reminiscent of the numerous Mambo nites at Zouk, seeing the little kiddies with all their hand signals on the platform. So I was mainly alone with Serene the whole nite. Not since a long time has 2 person clubbing been so enjoyable for me. If only they played "Once In A Lifetime", then I would feel the magic again.

So all the high point eventually ended with a low point, when she said she wun be going back to Boon Lay for the nite. Spending her nite at what she called her 2nd home. I suppose it have to be her bf's place. I din ask her abt it, because there r some things which I do not like to hear. So I dropped her off and went home.

What becomes of this "distraction"?


First attempt at combined pic. A bit unprepared. My mouth is filled with ice, and Serene's looking a tat like Bugs Bunny.


2nd attempt at combined pic. Lovely picture. isn't it? My distraction.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

What The Fuck Am I Doing Here?

Have you ever found urself in a position where u r with a whole grp of pple partying, having fun, basically just having a good time, and then u were suddenly reminded that you actually dun know much abt the majority of the pple and they r pple whom u just got to know. And in ur mind's eye, u wonder aloud "What the fuck m I doing here?" Not in a bad way, but just the incredulous feeling that you r genuinely having fun, but with pple who r slightly a bit more than strangers.

Ever since I started working, I found myself being in this position more and more. Not cos of work of coz; coz of the activities I joined after I started work. Mainly salsa. The rate of my social circle growth is expanding at an exponential rate ever since salsa. Sth I enjoy is the camaderie with the grp. That you have a regular grp of pals available for various activities.

I sense I may get expelled from the grp soon. It might just be my paranoia, knowing that I'm in a position of social taboo currently, being seemingly interested in Serene. Is she really just a distraction? I seriously doubt anything might blossom between us, given the intense competition and the bottomline being she is attached, though I dun hear much regarding the supposed bf. He seems missing in action. I haven done salsa at union in a long time. But I asked Serene to dance. If she isn't special, I dunno who is. I dun feel I'm being unethical, if she will like me, she will. If she chooses someone else, I'll accept it.

It might not even be a good idea to pen this down, not knowing if anyone in the salsa grp might be reading this. Like the shock I have when I realised Michelle (colleague) is reading my blog.
But heck, so be it. I'm know to be above concerns of social and peer views. I'm an island anyway.