Salsa By The Beach

I haven been blogging enough since I worked... Mainly too pre-oocupied during the weekdays, and too lazy during the weekends. Well, at least today there is sth memorable for me to blog abt.
Today was Salsa by the beach !

Was looking forward to this day for quite some time, mainly intrigued by how it is going to take place. Dance on the sand? Dance in beach wear? (Meaning bikinis, bikinis, and more bikinis.... heh heh...) However, I woke up today feeling rather reprehensive abt the whole thing. Cos I skipped salsa the previous nite, plus Lewis would not be going for the beach salsa. So that would mean me being a bit out of touch with salsa as well as with the pple there. Nonetheless, I decide to go for some tanning at Sentosa earlier in the day. I went alone anyway, as Eugene decided not to come. Michi joined me for a short while late in the afternoon. I haven catch up with her for a long while too. She's doing well, with her ebay biz and Crazy Horse job. I not too for her continuing the Crazy Horse, but I think the ebay would be a good venture. I wish I have some sideline at the moment too. It'll be hard surviving on just my fixed salary. I'm not banking much on my annual increment as everyone knows my company reputation when it comes to pay increment. Network marketing's not for me, and I dunno how to gain an entryway into stocks and shares. I lack the necessary financial backgrd as well... Think it'll be pretty hard. Anyway, she came just when 2 cai, of which 1 is a tua neh bu, decide to park beside the place I was lying. Talk abt bad timing.. wahaha (Sorry, Michi =P) Had a short swim b4 she went off n I carried on my wait for the beach salsa at nite.

It turned out to be not too bad after all; the event was held at Bikini Bar. The main dancefloor was actually just the area in front of the pub, which slowly extends to in front of Sakae Sushi and the ice cream parlor. I met the grp, consisting of Jianping, Johnny, Ellen, Renee, Ai Chin and fren at the sentosa terminal and we made out way there. Pris was not with them, but my heart ligthened when I saw Ellen there actually. The main dancefloor as usual was full with the pros and experts. We mainly did rueda during our time there. I found I like rueda more as compared to salsa. Prob cos I can't do salsa as well as the other guys there. I actually tot of taking intermediate level at some other studio, just to make myself practise more. All in all, it was a sticky, sandy, tiring nite, when we did rueda on the sands, played silly games similar as to orientation group times. There was a gal from Clarence's grp that caught my eye. Christine. Short, petite gal, with a face that reminds me of someone which I just quite can't put my finger on it at this moment. Maybe I'll catch her at Union 1 of these days.

We ended up walking out of sentosa as we missed the last bus. I really enjoyed the camaderie. I haven had this kinda grp fun for a long while. Ever since JC orientation days I guess. I have nv really felt as at ease with the JC class pple most of the times we have outings. It's a diff thing after some alcohol of coz, in which case I'll just be as crazy whoever I'm with.

Pris joined us a while later, and most of the time she's not with the grp. Think she was mostly doing salsa on the main floor. She simply has too many guys wanting to dance with her, and too many guy frens basically. I'm taking it a lot better today, as compared to some times at Union. Well, I told myself that I must take it easy with her. By not treating her as someone special, I can better click with her. No hopes, no expectations => no pressure. My mind's a bit on someone else as well; Michelle. (Not to be confused with Michi) My new dear online. More abt her another time.


Group photo of our salsa gang. (Some of which have MIA by now)


Our cranky "heads-tilt-to-the-right" pose.


Our Rueda-mania started way back, where we had our Rueda crash course conducted by Zhiguang and Clarence. Here I am, rueda-ing with Ai Chin.


Here's pretty Pris, with a glistening JP in the foreground.


Here's pretty Pris again, enjoying a dance with Clarence.


And here's the little lass I got to know that nite, Christine (on the far right). We drag her in for our Rueda crash course. She was later known as Miss Tng. =P

Alrite, tonite I revealed all the names of sensitive personnel which I normally would not reveal.
That's cos I've taken my blog link off my frenster. Heh heh heh.. so only the regular followers will know what's going on in my life. Part of the reason I haven been blogging is coz much of the things to blog r names which I can't reveal. Hence might as well dun blog. Well, no more of that!
Read all you wan, know all you want for now! Hell, I shall even ans ur queries if you bother to leave a msg.

You've Made A Fool Of Everyone... Me Mainly...

Look What You've Done

Take my photo off the world

If it just won't sing for you

'Cause all that's left has gone away

And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done

You've made a fool of everyone

Oh well, it seems like such fun

Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view

'Cause I just can't think for you

I can hardly hear you say

What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done

You've made a fool of everyone

Oh well, it seems like such fun

Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done

You've made a fool of everyone

A fool of everyone

A fool of everyone

I don't want to like you. I know I'd make a fool of myself if I do. But sometimes I can't help it. I dun ask you to dance cos I can't dance as well as others. I dun wan to be there all the time to feel the despair that I can't dance well enough to charm you. I longed to 1 day sweep u off your feet when we're dancing. That day will not come.

Groovy Baby

Salsa. Salsa. Salsa. That has been my driving force for the past 3 weeks. Is it love for the activity? Or is it some other reason? That's up for debate. Fridays are what I'm looking forward to every week; I even plan my Shanghai trip so as not to miss salsa class. Sat nites which used to be predominantly clubbing nites have became salsa nites for the past 3 weeks as well. And to think I used to think Lewis talks salsa, eats salsa, breathes salsa. It may just be a matter of time b4 I myself become like this. What's happening to me?

Just to close things up for some other chapters: The airport sweetheart/Lorraine saga is officially declared a bust. Her single sentenced sms replies rivals that of the great Daphne. Anyway, not to mislead anyone, but I have only send her a grand total of 2 sms. 2 sms and I can deduce the above. That tells pretty much abt the content of her replies. Until the next airport trip then, sweetheart... =P

Well..... abt Jessie. Ya, right. The same Jessie that I mentioned was on my mind the whole day in a few entries back. I haven seen her ever since the first nite actually... Mostly it's just crapping on msn, or trying to get each other to go club at some place but have nv yet to work out in any case. All in all, she's a nice gal to talk to, crap with, hang out buddy type. But I reckon better not to get too involved with her. Her life style prob could rival Michi's in terms of complications. I'm really not too suited (nor want to) for such biz anymore. Too taxing, too mind-wrenching, and mainly I dun see y I shd get myself involved in the 1st place.

Then there's still Vellene.... right? And of coz there's Miss C. Wrong. Haiz... also dunno how to say. This is working life I guess. It just doesn't allow u to try to date or even get to know someone more on a more regular basis.

So that's that for my scandalous love life. You would've expected sth more rite? Hahaha... Actually I'm holding back. Holding back from going all out. My approach is rather lackadasical. Prob that explains y none seems to work out. No one that could make me wana go all out. But I sense my downfall in her. Another Princess from Sengkang. Just what r the chances of that ? Damn.

(confused? not to worry, the clouds will clear in time to come.)

I've Got The Balls ~

Oh well, 6 mths after the first meeting, I finally qie my airport sweetheart. It wasn't really dramatic or awkward (to my amazement), but somewhere happened quite naturally. I touched down on Thur nite at abt 10pm. Initially, I wasn't even thinking of going to the duty free area to look ard as I was eager to get home, considering there's still work the next day. But when I reached the area, I just tot to myself "Just walk 1 rd if see if I might see her, it's not gonna take much time anyway". I was not expecting her as the previous few times I saw her was during the day time. So kind of expecting her to work the day shift.

I made 1 rd rd her usual area n saw ntg but little old ladies. Just when I tot it's time to go, I saw her. And she saw me too.

(The following dialogue is based on my vague memory of the conversation that took place, might not be the exact words, but more or less the same idea)

She was quick to say hi.

Lorraine: "Hello, can i help you?"

(I was kinda caught, so I just spoke whatever came to mind. Which happened to be the truth.)

Me: "Oh... I was just dropping by to see if I might see you ard."

Lorraine: "Oh izit? Where are you going this time?"

Me: "I just got back from Shanghai, erm... btw, do you remember who I am?"

(I know this sounds like an idiotic qn, but I gotta make sure you see?)

Lorraine: "Ya, of coz I do. I just can't remember where you told me you're going last time."

(Hmmm... how true it is that she remembered, I wun know. I shd have tested it out there and then. Shucks.)

Me: "Oh, I went to Shanghai also. it's the only place I've been going so far."

Lorraine: "Oic... it's nce of you to drop by to see me.. blah blah blah.."

The conversation went on to topics like what's the latest men's perfume, what time her shift ends, and other minor details. Till it was almost time to get going, I was still wondering how I could get some contact details and decide to maybe just fuck it. So I said:

Me: "I guess I shd get going." (Turn to go)

Lorraine: "Hey, I haven gotten your name yet."

(Fuck, it's now or never!)

Me: "Oh.. I'm Andy, and you r Lorraine rite? Eh... would u like to keep in contact?"

(That's it, the magic words are out)

Lorraine: ".... sure."

She actually asked for my card, but I din have any with me. Plus my card doesn't have my hp number anyway. So I just asked her for her number and said I'll give her a miss call later.

I turned and left, feeling like I have balls of steel. But in actual fact, I din really do anything. It simply just happened.

I dropped her a sms while I was on the cab on the way home, which she did not reply. Not too frenly for a start, but then today Pris just told me she replied my sms which I did not receive. Maybe it's my hp prob?

Work Work Work...

Work work work.... (sounds like what the peon said in Warcraft III? hehe) Yes. Work and more work. I'm been tasked with more n more stuffs, permanent projects, not the arrows like Kaizen and year-end function like last time. Well... isn't that a good thing? Frankly speaking, I feel I'm being under-utilized managing only 1 project. Feel that I dun even need to use half my potential. So isn't it a good thing now that I've got more?

Well... how shall I put this? I feel like I'm not being appreciated. My colleagues seemed to be the ones that r getting good reviews from my boss. Cos their customers are giving them more problems and henceforth has more job to be done. It's not my fault my program is running smoothly ya? Sheesh... I do have my fair share of probs too ya? Anyway, fuck it. The feeling of being under-appreciated makes me lose the drive to excel, to strife for more. I've been more or less in a slump lately, more looking forward to my fri and sat nites than at work.

I guess I better snap out of it. Work work work...

Life After Work...

Heh.. unknowingly, I have been blogging for more than a yr already. (Though recent entries r less frequent due to my hectic work which deprives me of anything interesting to blog abt) Ever since I started work, I've been thinking frequently abt upgrading myself; be it career-wise or social-wise. To learn new things, to pick up new hobbies and activities.

In terms of leisure, I start with picking up salsa. Unknowingly, I have already progressed till the middle of Intermediate level already, but still I feel like an amateur. Most prob the result of a lack of practise. I still dun have the confidence to just ask a gal for a dance, as I would not be spontaneous enough to execute just any moves that come to mind; to lead the gal without messing things up. I still rely too much on memorising or planning in mind what moves I wana do. The past few times at Union Square I did not really enjoy myself as I'm actually restricting myself, not daring to just ask someone for practise. Till last fri I was there. B4 I go I was still hesitating as I was expecting it to be just another boring session there. Then I just decide to fuck it and go n try to get as much out of my time there as I could.

Just as I was making my way to Union Square on the 2nd floor of Amara Hotel, I met Priscilla, 1 of only 2 gals in my Salsa class that's worth a 2nd glance. We chat as we made our way to Union, and somehow I felt that I would actually enjoy myself this nite. (A babe for company certainly helps any cause, u see?) Well, in the end I actually did enjoy myself that nite, just being pro-active and mixing ard with the pple from class that were there that nite. I'm even thinking of going on to learning Barcharta and Rueda after Salsa. They r planning a ktv outing next week, but very likely I'll have to miss that. Dunno what time I'll be back from Shanghai. =(

Apart from dance, I've developed a liking for live band performances. Any place for chilling and with a decent live band performing would be an ideal place for a weekend nite's out. Booze, smoke, music, babes. Hard to resist this kinda combination ya? I like the band outside Indochime at Wisma. The indoor female band isn't half bad as well. Yest just been to Timbre where the live band is similar to watching a concert. Loof is a very good hang out place as well, as a lack of live band.

Well... career-wise.... I would like to learn abt investing. Anyone who can give me any guidance or any courses I can attend? I would like to pick up financial accouting as well, would have took up the CFA course with Shuling had company not signed me up with a commerical law course, which I have no idea when it'll start.

In And Out Of Love

Judging by the title of this post, you mere mortals out there are likely to think its abt my love life again rite? Wrong. Well, for once at least. There simply hasn't been anything in the least interesting or scandalous abt my social life for the past few mths. I guess can say from the time I started working. So much so that I resorted to blogging abt my love stories in NTU, and just when I tot I can get sth going with Miss C, it got quenched just as fast.

The past few days, I literally witnessed the demise of my buddy who fell out of love. The scene is eerily reminiscent of what happened 1 yr plus ago (not happened on me, it's happened on him as well), just maybe worse this time rd. He just can't help but to destroy his chances of getting back together at every opportunity he has. Not that I could have done any better if I was in his shoes. I went thru this before, and every attempt or stunt that I try to pull, it brings her further and further away from me and deeper and deeper into someone else's arms.

Cooling off period. Might as well call it break-up. Period. Ntg good has ever come out of a cooling-off period that I heard of. It is just an excuse to allow the party that wanted out to have time to get accustomed to singlehood again; during that time off which she can chose to go back to the guy if she dislikes the imminent singlehood, or to simply assimilate a single's lifestyle if she prefers it that way. Sounds unfair? Well, this IS unfair. This is life. The real world as I like to call it.

So many infamous quotes were thrown out during times of depressions like this. I only subscribe to 2 of them which I always tell my close frens who suffers from relationship break-ups.

Door of Happiness

"When the door of happiness closes on you, another opens. But often, we looked so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us"

Serenity Prayer

"God gave me the courage to change the things that I can, and the serenity to accept the things that I cannot, and the knowledge to tell the difference"

There's a even simpler one with only 3 words. Life goes on...
It might sound so damn cliched, but these 3 simple words reflects the truth so much that it
hurts.

Brother, this entry is for dedicated for you. You sms me the Door Of Happiness quote when I broke up with Min in 2001 and I remembered it till today. I hope you can put it to good use now. Get your feet back on the ground soon.

A Walk Down Memory Lane

Went to Queensway with Lewis the other day to accompany him to buy PS2. The new version so sleek and small, make my bulky old counterpart look like shit. But1 thing is, its cd rom is the open up type, not the sliding type. Might be prone to failure easily i tot. Anyway, b4 we got there, we took a walk ard IKEA cos he wanted to buy a box to contain all his momentos from JC times, sec sch times, etc. He found a metal container, and I bought 1 for myself too seeing that it was quite cheap and nice.

So where is all this box-buying leading to, and how is it related to the title of this entry?

Well, yesterday I was sorting out all my old letters and cards and stuffs from JC and sec sch times - to be chucked into my new blue metal box and be relegated to oblivion. But just b4 relegation, I just decide to open up a few and read thru it. A walk down memory lane. It brought back more than just memories, mostly the letters that I received in JC.

During that time, I corresponded with a number of pple: mainly Meifang, Kaixin, Hilda, and of coz Xiaowei. I read all the Xiaowei letters first. Well, our letters were mainly abt our arguments. Usually after we quarrel, we'll end up writing letter to each other, to tell each other how disappointed we r. And I actually have quite a few of those letters. There were some after we broke up too. ( mainly she wrote to me to tell me how lousy I am)

I started writing to Meifang and Kaixin in yr 2 of JC. Corresponded the most with Meifang. We wrote countless letters to each other during that 1 yr, and subsequently for a part of 1999 while I was in the army and yet to have Min as a gf. I guess gradually stopped writing after I got attached. And partly cos of the emergence of internet at home and the purchase of a handphone. More modes of communications are made possible thru these 2 inventions. When we can simply sms or chat online with frens instead of snail mail of the past and phonecalls. (And it is exactly these that made me lose my infamous chee hong skills)

Reading thru these letters, 1 fact stared me in the face. I have changed. Changed into someone completely different from who I used to be back in those days. Most prob pple would ask "Got meh?" Of coz the exterior hasn't changed, I still joke ard and crap ard with everybody on the preface. But it's my mind that's changed. Guess no one really knows me much from the past, as is the present. Actually I believe even until today, my close frens dun really know the real me.

I used to be a dreamer. I used to believe in love. My mentality was pure and to a extent, naive. I used to like to express how I feel thru song lyrics (I still do now, just that I don't tell pple abt it) I love to do that, cos it seemed so poetic, so coincidence that someone is singing what's happening to you. Now I'm a cynic. When it comes to love, I'm skeptical. Maybe it's what I went thru. Maybe it's what I witness from my frens and the pple ard me. I became a realist. In a sense, this is the real world. No longer like the world we imagine when we were still innocent teenagers at sch. Well, at least I'm prepared for the real world now. (which was after I went thru whatever that came my way)

Back To Square One

Back to square one. Lalala ~

I'm Reduced To A Wreck Again

I'm a miserable wreck....

I'm finding mounting pressure on myself whenever I chat with Miss C. It's affecting me like how it was during the first time with Gillian. So the conversation always ended up sounding kinda polite and formal, hard to establish the flow which comes with simply relaxing and talking crap.
This is preventing me from even trying to call and chat on the phone. If I can't even get sth going online, what r the chances of doing it over the phone?

Y m I suffering from this again? I tot I'm pass that phase already. Or is liking her really putting on that much pressure on me? I'll have NIL chances if I dun even make phone calls to her. Now I can just talk crap with Miss J online, since the crush has already passed. The prob lies with Miss C now. Y is it always like this?

The Allure Of C

Ah... I have decided to cast aside my NTU Love Story for a while, as it doesn't seem too popular as reflected by the number of comments; a grand zero. Yeah, who cares abt what this beast went thru in NTU anyway??? We're all more interested in the present love story, ain't that rite??? Hehehe...

Erm.. for a start, there isn't much of a love story currently to speak of. Maybe things r just starting to get interesting. Well that's where all the fun part of being in love lies rite? The part when everything seem so uncertain; n u r being kept on ur toes, second-guessing what every little movement of her fingers might mean, when she could just be whisking away a fly. (Oh man, my heart is just not suited for this kind of excitement no more)

Actually my heart remains relatively unmoved, but it's just a few things which even I was shocked to noticed abt myself, that made me think that this gal is actually starting to gain a foothold in my heart. Let's just call her C. (I hope to hell she doesn't read my blog)

We went clubbing with a few common frens, namely E, D, S and another C which I shall call C2. (Heh.. not much help here) C was supposed to join us at a later time, and prior to her arrival, D was asking me how I'm feeling abt seeing C later. I tried to consider the qn seriously, sth like a gauge on whether I'm really into her; if I'm really excited or happy to see her. (Whether if i have the "heart as though little deer anyhow whack" feeling) I actually felt pretty normal, of coz looking forward to seeing her, but not having the butterflies in stomach kinda feeling. And when she turns up, I made a shocking discovery!!! I found myself hesitating to smoke in her presence!!! So I ended up not smoking the whole nite when she was with us. Usually I dun give a damn what gals would think of my smoking habits, but for her, I am actually hesistant to let her know that I smoke. Just a pt which I found pretty illogical.

Anyway, that clubbing nite was the last time I saw her, and that happened ard 2 weeks back. We correspond mainly on msn n using sms; I have yet to attempt to do a phonecall. Till now, we r still relatively formal frens. There is still that awkward politeness in our msn n sms conversations. D told me that C questioned her if I call all my female frens babe, as I called her babe a couple of times. Last weekend after clubbing, I came closest to doing sth fantastic. I pretty much did it without thinking, (was rather high after the Graveyard) I sms C goodnite n told her I missed her. I din get a reply for the whole day next day, n I tot I prob blew it n scared her away; Till at nite when we talked on msn. She asked if I was drunk the previous nite, n I got to say sth lame that I probably was...

NTU Love Story Year 2 Sem 1

The Day came and went without any fanfare. I did not pop the qn, neither did anything spectacular happened. But we did go out consecutively for 3 days prior to the The Day. At first I wasn't even supposed to go out with her on my birthday. Till on the actual day itself, I found myself without any program. I had purposely made myself free on that day, JUST IN CASE I can get sth going with Gillian. (And my mates more or less knew I have in mind to try some stunt, so they had decided not to jio me for anything on that day)

She had sth on that day already, but upon knowing I've got no programs, she did ask if I wana do anything. So she actually cancel her apptment to go out with me, which I tot was really nice of her. Well, the reason I din pop the qn was cos I kind of pop the semi-qn like just a few days b4 that, (which is to say I tried to test water) and the result came back negative. She wasn't really that into me yet. Yet. I tot that was the keyword. Well, it really IS the keyword, but another unmentioned keyword here is TIME. I tot I would just continue the pursue, as she has started to change her opinion of me as someone who generally fools ard - cast the net and see what u might get in it kind of guy. (Ok, some of u r gonna disagree on this, we shall debate that another time. At least let me look good in this blog entry first ya? =P) I told her abt my relationship with Min and how it went awry, n how it put so much hate into me. That time it still took a lot out of me when I relate my failed relationship. She could see the emotions in my face. How much I actually feel abt things. So after the June holz it did seem like we might be getting somewhere.

I can't be more wrong.

Things got progressively downhill after that. There were arguments. Actually I dun understand how there can be arguments. I mean we r not even an item yet. And already we r disagreeing on issues and end up arguing. Most times over my lack of sensitive-ness. And 1 major incident over who's gonna bring Xinyi to Orange during her faculty bash. To cut the story short, towards mid September, she deemed us as near-to-impossible to be together. I tried to hold on for a while, but somethings r just too much for me to take at that time. With that, the story ends...

The setting shift back to NTU.

I started wondering, y I keep having 'extra-marital' affairs like this instead of just trying to concentrate on the crops in my own sch. Vicinity is the key, ain't it? And hence I start my crop harvesting plan in NTU. Heh heh...

Due to my shy (what !!??) nature, I only got aquainted with 1 new gal this sem. OK, that's crap. I'm going to admit what a jerk I am actually. Be prepared. I do selective fren-making. It helps if u r a babe. (Oh man, it helps a lot!) Not to say I shun un-babeish gals, just that I wun hong u as much. (I'm so gonna expect numerous flamings for saying this) Anyway, I dare say it is true for most guys. They just dun admit it anyway. Anyway, since they have broken up the class that we have in yr 1, this sem I'm pretty much on my own. I dun really plan my timetable with my mates as I have my own agenda, dun wana compromise anything shd I need to plan with frens who happen to have conflicting timetables. I operate alone for most things anyway.

So for the early part of this sem, the gal in qn I got to know was Christine. We happen to share the same Comm Skills class. (What better class to know gals than this?They r practically teaching u how to communicate. Whahaha!!!) Anyway, I heard stories abt a Miss Sg pageant gal in my cohort but till now then I'm able to place a face on this person. Well, Christine wasn't really my kind of gal, but she deserves special mention since she appear in my NTU life anyway.
We got on relatively well, where I often help her with stuffs like notes n reminding her of impt dates. (She tells me she get constant reminders from frenscos she blur like sotong) Hell, I virtually helped everyone with their notes and stuffs.

This was also the sem that I got to know my hottest babe of NTU, Jiani and Vivian. Vivian was Rebecca's fren, whom I caught occasional glimpses of during my 1st year. This sem, Yingying would meet Rebecca for lunch on every Tuesdays, and Vivian would join them. Yingying asked me along too, and that's how I got to know her. Coupled with occasional chance meetings on our way to sch, and the fact that we both from MPE, we gradually began to hang out together more n more. The interesting things with Vivian start only in the next sem, for now everything is still quiet on that front.

The way I got to know Jiani was even more championship; sth better not to be revealed here. Haha. I got to know her during the EID period during the Dec holidays. Everyday I would gladly go for EID with the hope of seeing her. Our first meeting (initially we r more of like virtual frens) was when she wants to take some notes from me and we had a short meeting at Suntec. She was working part-time at a pub at Tanjong Pagar that time, n various times I wanted to go check it out and see her but she wasn't really in favor of the idea. Towards the starting of sem, we actually planned our timetables to share some common classes. With that, I started the next sem full of hope.

NTU Love Story Year 1 Sem 2

I found renewed vigor during sem 2 of my 1st yr. Primary reason being: I now have a target. I started seeing Gillian, though not on a very regular basis. Sth like once every 2 weeks, or sometimes even in a month. Though I did not actually progress very far, I did start to get on the nerves of another suitor - Bamboo.

I remembered during on our 1st date, after the day's event n I was seeing her home, Bamboo made an unexpected appearance below her block. The conversation went like this:

Gillian : Hey, y r u here?
Bamboo: Cos I miss you mah.
Gillian: Blah blah blah
Bamboo: Blah blah blah
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Bamboo (to me) : Thanks for sending her back.
Me (to myself) : Who the fuck r u to thank me for sending her back???

It gets worse as the sem goes along. There was once when we went out to watch "My Sassy Girl". The whole date was plagued by phonecalls from Bamboo, asking where she was, whether she can meet him cos he's feeling very dejected, etc. It gotten so bad that we gotta consider whether we shd buy an additional ticket just to have him here so that he can see Gillian n put his mind at ease. Weirdo !!! Not to forget the UK Funfair incident. He turned up unexpectedly, when I was supposed to be going with only Gillian and Xinyi. It was hard enough for me to make conversation that time, n his presence made it even worse.

When I went over to NUS to meet Gillian to study, he would purposely make himself in the vicinity, seat at nearvy tables, go for meals together, just wanting to be somewhere ard. Strange that I wasn't really bothered by him back then. Maybe I just felt that he wasn't much of a threat. But now as I blog, the tot of his actions made is making my blood boil! Just where in the world do u find such a loser??? Eventually, they fell out due to some dubious rumours that he supposedly started circulating.

Well, Part 2 of the Shiyi saga happened ard this time. Out of nowhere she suddenly asked if I wana study together for the coming exams. Later I found that she had just broken up with her bf as he had another gal. So we did studied together at her hall study room for a couple of times, and heading into the holidays, it seemed that I would have trouble on my hand.

But trouble it seemed, wanted no part of me. I did make it clear that Gillian was the gal I like, though I still go out with Shiyi more for companion purposes, as she has spent 4 lifeless yrs with her ex-bf n wasn't really close to many of her frens at that time. My dates with Gillian hit an all-time high during the holz. We went to Sentosa for the Sandsation exhibition, we went out for movies frequently, and it seemed as my birthday became imminent, I wanted to make it THE DAY - the day to pop the qn.

NTU Love Story Year 1 Sem 1

When I look back upon my uni days, 1 thing that would always go down as a regret will be that I did not get a gf on campus thru my 4 years there. Maybe you might say Min is 1, but that was like a brief 1 sem where we were still not officially together. More like rendezvous. Haha. This entry is dedicated to my encounters with the female species during my 'eventful' 4 yrs in NTU.

I had not expect to meet many babes being in engineering fac. Had not even bothered to go for orientation camps, as I was too pre-occupied with Weiling and Val during that period prior to sch starting. I din not even feel like socialising much at that moment, still have too much hate in me. There is a class meeting on the 1st day of sch. The only gal that caught my eye in class was Yingying. And of coz Amelia as she became our class rep. The 2 of them happened to be the 2 most presentable gals in a class of 7 gals, inclusive of 2 butches. Marina is a babe as well, but she's a malay, so I shall put her out of the equation.

Some minor interuptions took place during the 1st few weeks of my Uni life, which made me paid lesser attention to the gals in sch. On my first Uni bash of NTU, I met Adeline. It was my birthday that nite. She was crush at first sight, I would say. I had not met anyone quite as beautiful before. It would seemed like a birthday wish come true if I could have her as a gf. The fiasco lasted a grant total of 2 weeks. I was with Eugene n Lewis at SOS the nite we met her. N I knew Eugene to be interested as well. Though he did not tell, I could sense that sth was going on. It was a really freaky experience.

I remember 1 particular incident. I had asked Lewis n Eugene to go catch a movie together but Eugene said he couldn't make it. I sense sth wrong. I purposely asked Lewis abt it to which he gave some excuse abt a army fren outing for Eugene. I sense sth even more wrong. I decided to give Adeline a call, to see if I would catch them unaware. She lied her way thru. But somehow I knew they were out together. I verified that 1 yr down the road. Lewis and Eugene both knew but kept it from me. In fact I was glad they did that, cos I might have gone bonkers had they let me knew it at that time. Not that I'm blaming anyone for it, just that for that moment I might not have taken it well n end up putting a scar on our frenship.

I did not know all that at that time, but I could sense Adeline's dis-interest as well. I went down to Westmall where she's working at Guardian Pharmacy to meet her a couple of times. The 1st time was quite ok, she agreed to go for a drink after her work. Subsequent times the response gotten more n more lukewarm. Despite the obvious hints, I still went on to tell her that I like her, which of coz was met with a rejection. My agression lessen after that, n it ends when I saw her by chance, together with a ah-beng-like creature whom she confirmed is her new bf.

Who would have guess Weiling would come popping back into my life at this period. We had ended on a very bad note previously, but in view of her imminent O levels, she was asking me to help her with her sch work. I can't reject, since she made a open request abt it. It would be too ungentlemanly to refuse her. Though this time I kept my distance, tried not to be too enthu abt her as I dun wan to end up playing a fool again. But that was how it ended up in the end still. A fool.

We met up to study a couple of times at nite after sch, either at Lot 1 or Holland V. I nv questioned her abt her status all the while, as I dun wan to know what's happening in her life.
I guess she was feeling vulnerable as well during that time, n we ended up liking each other for a very brief moment. For her, I've done quite some stupid things that probably ended up not appreciated. I wrote her a 500 word easy to tell her y i like her, in response to the most frequently asked qn for gals - "Why do you like me? " I jokingly asked if I shd write her an essay on that, when she kept asking me the qn. She jokingly agreed, but the eassy became real. I bought her a bouquet of flowers, a mango cake n 2 love deivls that she so liked that time, during her birthday and went to look for her beneath her block. I could tell she was touched, but I guess the feeling did not last long. She was back to her usual 'put aeroplanbe self' after a few days time. It ended when I finally realised she was just going thru a bad patch with her on and off bf at that time. Fooled again. This would not be the 1st time that a gal named Weiling fooled me with a guy named Eric. It would happen again years later, can't believe the freakiness of it.

Finally, end of my 'extra-marital' affairs outside NTU. Haha. All my distractions outside sch was over with, n my focus return to NTU naturally. Return to the gals that I hanged out with in sch.
Yingying is a very nice gal. We used to go home together after lessons as we were the only 2 person in our clique that stays off campus. My 1st sem clique revolves ard these 2 gals, plus some other guys Ronggui, Zhenyang, Mark mainly. We were together for the most of my 1st yr, until we streamed to MPE and EEE. Nothing special ever happened between us b4, though many mistook us to be a couple. She's just a very easy person to get along with, and partly cos I think I subconsciously prevent myself from stepping over the line as she has a bf all the while. I dun go for attached gals, that was my principle back then.

Once she told me sth her bf did during their courtship that made her feel touched. The guy called her to see how she's doing when she did not attend sch cos she was sick. A very simple gesture, but it means a lot to her. Then she actually did the same for me, when I was sick and did not go to sch during 1 of the EID days. She knew abt it thru Zhenyang n co. as she happened to bump into them in sch. That time we had already streamed to MPE and EEE. But the same nite, she called me n asked how I was doing. It made me feel so guilty as I wasn't really sick. I just told that to my EID grp as I was out clubbing the previous nite and simply too tired to go to sch the next day. We just talked briefly, as that time I had already lost the technique of phone conversations, all thanks to the wonders of modern technology which allows pple to chat online.

She was 1 of the fewer gals that I called or called me on a frequent basis. Sometimes during exam times, she would call just to complain abt being stressed. Though we sometimes joked abt being together, it was more of a pal-ly pal-ly feeling between us mostly.

Amelia wasn't really my cup of tea back then. She was a bit too angmoh for my liking at that time. A kandang as one would say. Well, time changes pple and now I no longer have preferences over kandangs n non-kandangs, (just not too extreme cases) but now we r more pals than anything. For the most part of our uni days, she also was attached, though now single n available. (heh heh... =P)

Din have much chance to know gals outside of class, except for lab lessons where we ususally combined with adjacent classes. That was where I noticed Shiyi. She is this cute petite gal with braces, more adorable than anything. Our initial pt of contacts were simply "Hi-s" and smiles whenever we passed by each other. I waited till the last day of papers, where I felt I simply got to do sth b4 the impending holidays when I wouldn't get to see her for 2 mths. She was always sitting a few seats away from me in the exam halls so i timed my exit at the end of the paper so as to catch her outside the hall. Can't remember exactly what I said to her when I met her outside. I think it was some shit like it's a tough paper or some crap. Then I just blurted out if I could have her number. She seem shocked but surprisingly, she just gave it to me. Hence I accomplished my mission on the last day of sch and was going to have a holiday where I could look forward to try to ask her out. Or so I tot....

At the start, her responses were cold. No replies, or single worded replies whenever I sms her. I could more or less sense her dis-interest, but I'm not gonna let up so easily. Till she put it blatantly that she has a bf, then did I let up. So after that I just took her to be a normal fren, as my principle still stands that time, and even if I wanted to try, I dun think it would get me anywhere except to bang wall. That was the end of her story. Or so I tot at that time....

The part 2 din come until next sem, during which in the Dec holidays I got to know a gal. She would go on to impact my life in a way no other gal has did since Min, for the next few yrs to come. Gillian.

Some history lesson. Thru Xinyi, whom we met at SOS on that fateful when we met Adeline, I got introduced to her other chio good fren. Gillian. After chatting online for a few mths, we agreed to meet up. It was a pretty uneventful first date, I was like a block of stone. I lost all my mojo at that time. No dating skills whatsoever. I guess that was what did me in eventually. But I did manage to hold on for a pretty long time. Nv since Sandy have I like someone for so long. We met during the Dec holidays, and the courtship took off in the next sem.

Some Feelings Never Die

It's been a whirlwind 2 weeks since my last trip to Shanghai, which coincide with my last entry as well. December is usually the most-awaited month, and it pass by just like that, with all the holidays and feative celebrations.

I remember my age-old saying, that weird things happen in December. Brings back the JC memories of 97 & 98. The same pple whom I proclaimed was most precious to me, prior to my enlistment. The class of 97S16. We did not keep together as a whole thru-out these yrs, but everytime we met up, the bonds nv seemed to have been broken. Been mixing ard with my JC mates slightly more regularly in December, thus invoking such feelings I guess.

Yiling, Shuling, Sandy, Eugene, Lewis & I gathered for a nite of board game fun at Eugene's Farrer place on Xmas eve. Next we attended James wedding on the 26th, and then there was the New Year Eve party at Zouk last nite, where Sandy, Candice, Yiling, Shuling Eugene & I went for. This is actually the 1st time that I clubbed with the class gals in a long while I guess, barring those miniscule pubbing nites at Samsara eons ago. It actually happened to be Shuling's 1st clubbing experience, from the looks of which I think she enjoyed herself quite a bit. =)

Work is taking up too much of my energy to really pursue my love life. I just could not gather the energy to be initiative, to ask gals out, to try to make sth happen. It might be so far there's no gal who has a pronounced effect on me to want it happen so bad. So I've just been passively moving along, taking a chance at what might come my way. But this is not the way I want things to be, I prefer to choose what I want, who I want. I don't want to compromise no more.

At the same time, some feelings never really die. I think Min will be in my heart for the rest of my life. I truely believe we were meant to be together, had we not been so stubborn, so wilful in our youth. We did not cherish each other, but she lives on in my mind forever.

I was on Gillian's frenster site and saw she posted the pic we took together at her convocation with Xinyi. I dun know what that meant. She is supposed to be disgusted with me. It might not mean anything after all. She was another 2nd chance which I had blown. It might have been for the better, cos till now I'm still not very convinced we might be compatible. I used to not believe in character clashes until I met her.

Another feeling that did not die. I always tot it did, but apparently it resurfaced. Well, it happened ages ago, and this one I'm pretty sure there wun be any 2nd chance. There wasn't any 1st chance to begin with. I dun even wan to mention names, it might cause too much controversy.

Some feelings did die anyway, and I'm glad that they died. I met up with Princess 2 weeks ago. It was an impromptu idea, when we chatted online during my overtime. We met up and went for dinner at Bishan for sushi. I dun feel much for her anymore. Looking back, it seemed dumb how I could have been so distraught over it all last yr.

3rd Trip

Back from my 3rd Shanghai trip, where I was required to give a presentation in Mandarin. I suck big time; but really impressed at the eloquence of my boss, be it whether in eng or mandarin. The meeting got kinda ugly, cos of Mr X, from the way I see it, is actually quite an incompetant man. Only his history in the army gave him some stature from which he accomplishes what he has done so far. A bit of of a background advantage. And these fucking Chinese men whom were from the army in the past have a habit of using the word 'qiang bi' ie: to be shot. Everything also wan to qiang bi. The only thing thats gonna be qiang bi would be his balls.

I saw Gillian the other day, when I was at JP shopping for winter wear. She was dining with a guy at Billy Bomber's. She was laughing happily while the listening to the guy talk. It seemed like the ideal scenario that she always wanted. The guy would chat her up and engage her in interesting conversations. Something that I nv seem to do as good as how she wants. At least I'm glad to see that she can be happier with someone else than with me. Even if things dun work out, at least I know she's happy now. Anyway, me n my mysterious luck at work again. On my way to JP I was just thinking if I might meet anyone there. Gillian did cross my mind cos she told me she saw me at JP b4 last time when I was with Min. Then indeed I have to see her.

Saw my airport sweetheart Lorraine at the perfume shop again. We said "Hello". =(

Why?

Jessie is on my mind the whole day. Why?

Famous Quotes From BPGHS

"I just scrub it clean last week, this week it became black again" Ruili, when asked y his dick is so black.

"Country road, take me home. To the place, I beLONGGGGGG... WEST VAGIINNAA!!! Mountain mama, take me home, country road" Tingyou, during sec 3 NPCC campfire.

"My name is ... Braaaba" Braba, during sec 1 self introduction. (The class goes: Huh?? simi bra??)

"Now, we will sing the BUGIS song" Jiamei, asking the juniors to sing the Boogie song during NPCC campfire.

"Father IBRAHIM, has seven children.....~" Jiamei again, refering to Father Albraham.

"You know what sperm looks like or not?" unknown challeneged Zhongyi. "Of coz lah! Look like soya bean like that loh" Zhongyi retort. (So viscous???)

"What do you see?" Yibao, asking Nose to peek thru the curtains to look out for passerbys, while gambling in my room.
"2 pairs of socks" Nose. (........................)

"When got spot check? My hair very long" unknown
"Hair where?" Azlina.
"............." unknown.

"你觉得XX怎么样?" Zhixiang, asking Hanxi.
"Ok ah, not bad" Hanxi
"你想不想DIAO她?" Zhixiang
"...................." Hanxi

To be added on...

Pics From Shanghai

Finally resolved my pathetic hp cam's MMS settings. Been having trouble sending the pics I took to my email when I finally realised y. My MMS settings change to Starhub settings when I tried using my Starhub line to send MMS with that hp. So I gotta call up M1 service line to request for the M1 settings again. So now..... all the gorgeous pics I've been holding back for so long can finally be revealed ! Heh... as if a VGA hp cam can take what kinda gorgeous pics.

Let's start with my 1st China trip...



Alrite, I know you all r gonna say it's spastic to take pic of my hotel room. But come on, this being my 1st official businees trip. Kinda memorable ya? So trying to bring back bits n pieces of memories any way I can. Ok... eh.. so as any idiot can tell, this is my bed.



This is my bed again, in a slightly ruffled state. And NO, it's not cos I've had a nookie with some china chick. But in any case, notice the glass pane beside the bed?
U can actually see the silhouette of what's in the bathroom thru it. I can imagine a scene where I'm on the bed admiring the curves of whichever lady's in the shower, awaiting her to finish and then we proceed to ......... play chess and then read a magazine together.



Eh... next is my workdesk in the hotel room which I'm ashamed to say that I did not utilise at all. I haven got my lappie yet then. (Well, the lappie refused to work on my 2nd trip even though I tried to use it)



This, is the seat of sin. I would sit on this couch by the window at nite b4 turning in, smoking my china cig, having a drink of eh... pepsi (Shucks, it's in the pic. otherwise I would've said wine) and enjoying the scenery. What scenery u say? Well.. this:



Ok ok, I know this isn't exactly world class scenery (or photography for that matter), but it does offer a nice view over that part of Shanghai. (Staying on the 23rd floor helps) Anyway, I've always loved overlooking vast expanse of areas, especially city areas.





Ok, some gimmicks from Shanghai. This is their famous Zhong Hua cigs. It actually cost much much more than Malboro in Singapore. More than 2 times the price, when I saw it at the duty free zone. Another thing; they dun seem to have menthol cigs in China. Forced to smoke their lights, which was quite apalling at first until I got used to it.

Next, these seemingly innocent looking business cards actually hide some hideous secret. They are disguised as business cards for airlines, but in reality its for call gals. And how do I know that? (I din call, u idiot) My colleague who has the honour of several extended stays in Shanghai let me in on that trick. These cards are distributed by little kids on the streets. By little kids, I mean pre-pubescent teens, who will attempt by all ways and means to maneuver the cards into ur hands. I once walk thru a bunch of them, only to realise they even manage to slip them into my pants pockets and bag and everywhere.





And lastly, 2 pics I took on my 2nd trip there. Saw this little garden with a wooden water wheel and bamboo growing by the sides. Its actually at the ground floor lobby of the sleazy hotel I'm staying at, and it looked rather nice. So just tot i'll snap some pics of it.

Coffee, Tea Or Ghost?

Back in my seat, fresh and wide awake after a steaming cup of mocha. Well not exactly fresh, but better than how I've been feeling all morning at least. 1 late nite with Date With Vampire 2 left me in this state, not much better off than a vampire in need of blood. Anyway, yesterday I tried something that I've nv done b4 in my 25 years of existence....

I drank coffee !!!

Of coz not the iced mochas or cappuccino or fuckuccino from Coffee Bean or Starbucks. I mean a normal hot cup of coffee. (Ok, it came out from a vending machine, but so what?) That was my 1st cup of coffee in 25 years. (Lizzy must be reaching her millionth or billionth cup by now. Major coffee freak she is) Heh... so sua ku hor? Nv drink coffee b4.

Remember when I was young, (I mean really toddler kind of young.... ok, maybe ard 5-6 yrs old) Mum used to like to drink coffee. So just for the sake of going against her and being irritating, Zai and me would pretend that coffee is the most disgusting and foul-smelling beverage in the world. (She was always chiding us for drinking coke too, ya see?) Anyway, my resentment for coffee is not without reason. The 1st time Mum asks us to have a taste, well..... it tastes bitter. The only taste that a 5-6 yr old kid likes is sweet. (Or is it just me? I know I've got a sweet tooth) So my first taste of coffee brought a grimace to my face. Next, Ronald MacDonald, Hamburglar and Birdy turned up too. Alrite, that was corny.

Anyway, just to digress a bit... speaking of Grimace... April used to say I reminded her of Grimace. (Or Winnie The Pooh on other days) And I would tell her she's Birdy and Lewis is HamBurglar then. Been some time since I saw her, just wonderning how she is doing. She somehow reminds me of a ball. Ok, this is not suppose to sound mean. She is just so... round, bubbly and bouncy. Sth like the wink in msn of the bouncing smiley face. Full of sunshine.
Ok, enough abt Grimace and bouncing balls... get on with the story.

Now.... what story? Yeah rite, The Mystery Of The Coffee Phobia. 1st Investigator - Jupiter "Andy" Jones, 2nd Investigator Pete "Lewis" Crenshaw, Records & Research - Bob "Eugene" Andrews. Heh... I'm so crappy, tot this up on the spot, but their physical description does match us quite accurately. Oh well, so after that I've repulsed coffee all my life. Until that fateful day yesterday....

Anyway, I had another cup today. I hope I dun get addicted to coffee. How uncool, man ! Hahaha... Well, the reason y I took coffee again today.... cos I'm really feeling like shit. Attempted to doze a while in front of my monitor, when it happened..... I attained nirvana and mastered the ability to achieve mental orgasms. Alrite, as most of you can probably tell by now, the previous sentence is crap again. So what really happened is that... I lapsed into sleep paralysis.

For 1st timers to this phrase, let me try to describe this sympton to the best of my ability: It is a state when you are sleeping (or rather, not sleeping but trying to) and u suddenly realised that u r not able to move, or to even open ur eyes or make noise. Basically, as the name implies - paralysis. Then there is this horrible sensation of sinking; sinking into where? God knows. Sth like sinking into limbo. If there really is limbo, I would think that is how it feels. Stuck in a dimensionless world. It would take tremendous energy (or is it will?) to make myself move an ounce and break out of it. I've been proned to these lapses for many yrs, the 1st time was when I was still in sec sch. Dun ask me what causes it, I have no clue at all, though I suspect its due to an unusually high sex drive... Nah, it usually happens when the mind is tired and the body refuse to sleep.

Anyway, my 1st encounter with it was ...... terrifying. When I finally broke out of it, the feeling of tiredness was like a wave that swept over me. Prompting me to close my eyes immediately, and drop into the abyss all over again. I gotta force myself to sit up and shake the sleep out of my head b4 carefully treading on the path of sleep again. For some time, I tot this was what they called being "pressed" by ghost, or sth supernatural. 1 time when I was suffering a lapse again, I was determined to find out who or what is causing me all this discomfort. I forced my eyelids open as wide as possibly, (those 2 seemingly thin pieces of membrane felt like it weigh a ton) n tried to catch sight of whatever ghost that might be pressing on me. It was that I tot I saw it! There was a black silhouette upon my chest, looking like a man/woman's head covered in a hood. (some jungle Ku Klax Klan shit)

Then i tot, "This is it! I'm so gonna give it to u when I break out of this. Just u wait and see!" So I did break out of it and regain control, only to discover what's on my chest was ntg but my pillow. The corner of it seemingly to look like a man's head covered under a hood. Oh well, that's spells the end of the supernatural links I had with sleep paralysis. Anyway, it was far from spooky everytime it happens. Just damn fucking irritating. Can't a man get some good sleep when he most needed it?

Demise Of The Quails

Well, my surviving quail died as well. Without me ard again. This one is actually a grand old age of 5 yrs old. I guess what they say is true. When an animal loses its partner of long, it usually loses its will to carry on living as well. It started making soft squeaking sounds of late, as opposed to how it used to scream like a rooster. And finally 1 day I came home to hear from Mum that it has died. Now the spot in the kitchen looks kinda weird, without its cage which has been there for 5 yrs.

I spent this week in a zombie-like state, especially every morning on my long train rides to work. Guess its the after effects of last week, where we had a holiday every alternate day of the week. Mon, Wed and Fri nites all seemed like a good nite for clubbing. Mon was Hallowean; lotsa Hallowean parties everywhere. Then Wed was a good time to crash Mambo at Zouk. Fri is just as good as any other Fri for a nite of wild clubbing. End up only went Devil's Bar on Fri nite with Eugene and Qixiao. Lewis joined us a while later with a grp of his RV frens. Cuixia joined us even later in the nite. Somehow, seeing her always make me happy. The ever cute and cheerful little gal. She happened to know Tricia as well.

Talking abt clubbing.... We were actually refused entry at Thumper the week b4. Eugene, Kim Wen and I were in the queue when the door bitch decide to check our IC and declared us as "underaged". Wtf. 28 yr old for guys. Seriously, this is shit man. Most prob she just decide to refuse us cos we looked like we're not going to be spending a lot of money in there. When was the last time that I've been refused at a club?? Only once ever at Chinablack, when their age limit was still 22, and I'm 21 at that time. Anyway, Kim Wen said he'll set up Humper just beside Thumper. That got me thinking of our Tonite club with Eugene and Lewis. The club we said we'll set up when we're making big bucks next time. It still seem like a possible venture. I wun give up the dream. Haha.

Of Purple And Cyan Shirts

Today morning, I left house in a rather cheery mood cos I'm wearing my new purple shirt (yeah, I do feel happy when wearing new clothes) that I bought from G2000. But I realised a horrific truth when I reached the interchange.

My attire is exactly the same as the Tibs bus drivers ! Purple long sleeve shirt with black pants ! Even the tone of the purple colour is exactly the same. Damn. I quickly move thru the interchange at my fastest walking pace, taking care not to walk too close to any of the bus drivers, so as not to blend in. This is just so niao. And come to think of it, my other new shirt kinda resembles the SBS bus driver uniform... cyan... ARgghhhhhhhh !

On another note, my quail died while I was away in Shanghai. Y do they always seem to die when I'm not ard? My other quail died while I was in Thailand yrs ago. Just as well I guess, save me any form of sadness had I have to take care of the disposing after its gone. Just for the record, it did not have a burial and the eggs were thrown away cos we dun dare to eat them.

My last Shanghai trip was......impromptu. Tue morning n boss ask me to catch the evening flight there. There was a slight scare at the airport when I checked in already and they called to tell me they haven gotten me a room. I contemplate bunking in with my storekeeper at the warehouse had I really gone roomless but luckily they found me a cheapskate hotel in the end.
The facilities are not too good to put it in a nice way.... I got a bedside lamp that doesn't work and a leaky tap. 1 good thing is a got a fantastic view of the........ AIRPORT! Haha. Just out the window is the parking place for their domestic flights. Oh ya, and I get to walk to work since our warehouse is just a few steps away. The weather feels just rite at first, the streets feel like its air-conditioned. Till the last day when I'm shivering when I'm in the open.

Time To Go...

I think my little quail's dying... she can't seem to walk properly no more, floundering abt on the floor most of the time. It's a pitiful sight, but i guess it's abt time too. She's a good old 4 yrs old already, and bore almost 100 over eggs. Somehow, I've got a special attachment to her, mainly cos I bought her from the Teck Whye bird shop 4 yrs ago. It seemed that it was destinied for me to buy her; My yellow quail having just died some months ago, and I happen to chance upon her at the pet shop, somemore just 1 single quail on sale that day. After which I've nv seen them sell anymore quails.

Dinner & Dance? ..... Nah...

It's been a hectic week. I realised holding this position mainly revolves ard having lotsa contacts and knowledge. Not forgetting the ability to push pple to get what u want. I feel that I'm under-performing. I'll still need some time b4 I can run the one-man-show like my colleague beside me.

Anyway, y r there so many pple interested in the DnD ??? Just to ans some queries. It's actually less of a DnD than I tot. It turned out to be just a company function lunch, preferably at a hotel near some mrt station. (At this pt, I welcome suggestions for hotels to come in, but they gotta be fast. I have to book it soon. Last yr we had it at Hotel Rendezvous. So suggestions for hotels shd be in line with this level of hotel class pls) So to speak, there will be no need for a partner. However, if anyone wishes to volunteer as a partner, I'm keeping the nite free for going out. =)

Sigh, sad to say, I've nv been to a proper DnD where u have to bring a partner. Wonder when I'll have the chance for such an occasion. I wonder more who I can ask to be my partner. haha. Hopefully, she'll be in red. Then I can serenade her with the song "Lady In Red"

The lady in red is dancing with me cheek to cheek

There's nobody there, it's just you and me, it's where I wanna be

But I hardly know this beauty by my side

I'll never forget, the way you look tonight.

The Arrow Man

The end of 3 seemingly endless weeks. Yest was the day of Kaizen presentation. I din quite manage to put up a show as what I envisioned that I'd do. Partly due to the bored expression I saw on the senior management guy's face. So I just chop chop get it over and done with. Ok, down with 1 arrow and another coming up. The arrow caught me rite in the chest - organise company DnD for Dec. Argh! How come Melvin doesn't seem to get any of these extra arrows?
Good exposure, as they said. True in a sense. I'll just have to slurp up all these experiences as though they r choc syrup.

Vellene flew for Hong Kong yest morning. (Not Taiwan. heh heh...) She called me early in the morning while I was caught amid the human jam in the train on my way to work. She's bored at the airport, having mistaken her 8am flight for 8pm flight. How funny. I'm a bit surprised she called, prob cos I'm the only person who's likely to be up at that hr. Haha. We talked on the phone the nite b4 she left also, for a while.

Cabs....

Its been a while, stupid blog.

I'm currently still in my office, 1st time that I'm staying so late actually since the 1 mth plus I've worked. While waiting for Kelvin to send me my data, I might as well steal some time to blog. (Actually I'm just waiting 8pm, then can claim cab fare home)

My past 2 weekends been pretty monotone. Sat and Sun were spent at home, with Fri nites trying my best to have some fun which always fail. Same can be said for this weekend. But luckily I managed to find a shop selling sth that I've been looking for for quite sometime. They really tight with the regulations nowadays. I sourced Toa Payoh, Clementi, Queensway, Jurong East and all the other regular big town centrals n din manage to find a single one of them. So having found this one, I snapped up 6 of them at 1 go. Who knows how long this one is going to last b4 someone baoto.

I gotta keep any eye on my expenditure. I just settle my insurance plan, which also goes to say I'm now 200 bucks poorer every mth. CPF loan return is gonna set in next mth, which means an additional cut of few hundred bucks. Along with more and more cab fares. Speaking of cabs......

FUCK U DAMN EUNOS AREA N BLOODY CAB DRIVERS !

I was so fucking pissed that day with waiting for cab. I tot it was just cos of Eunos but the same damn thing happened while I was at Queensway also. The roads at Eunos are so damn fucking big, but yet there's so many goddamn cars but incidentally, pathetically few of them turn out to be cabs. I spent an awful half an hr waiting for cab at non-peak hrs, until I got so pissed that I took the bus to Toa Payoh instead. Then the jam got so bad that it took me 45 min to get to Toa Payoh interchange. I tot that was the worst it could be, till I ventured to Queensway on the same nite. This time it took me fucking 1 whole hr to wait for a damn cab. And it was till I got so dulan that I actually called for a cab, that 1 little Trans Island cab came ambling along. (Note: it was not the cab that I called for) At this pt which I dun give a damn to any morals anymore n just board that cab home. Somebody's gotta get played but I wun let it be me no more. Had enough for the nite.

No squash session in the near future. Sigh. And I just bought my racquet like yesterday somemore. =( And she's torturing me with Taiwan guys again. Argh! Must it always be the Taiwan guys?

Virus??

----- WORST VIRUS EVER ----

CNN ANNOUNCED

A A new virus has just been discovered that has been classified by Microsoft as the most destructive ever. This virus was discovered yesterday afternoon by McAfee . This virus simplydestroys Sector Zero from the hard disk, where vital information for its functioning are stored. This virus acts in the following manner:

It sends itself automat! ically to all contacts on your list with the title: "A Card for You". As soon as the supposed virtual card is opened the computer freezes so that the user has to reboot. When the ctrl+alt+ del keys or the reset button are pressed, the virus destroys Sector Zero, thus permanently destroying the hard disk. Yesterday in just a few hours this virus caused panic in New York , according to news broadcast by CNN.

This alert was received by an employee of Microsoft itself. So don't open any mails with subject: "A Virtual Card for You. " As soon as you get the mail, delete it !! Even if you know the sender !!! Please pass this mail to all of your friends. Forward this to everyone in your address book. I'm sure most people, like myself, would rather receive this notice 25 times than not at all.

Damn. I think that's what happened to my comp. Keep telling me zero sector is faulty. But I dun remember opening any virtual cards from anyone. Anyway, I just bought my comp stuffs from Sim Lim yest. Really went down there and anyhow humpthump. Got myself a new hard disk (160GB! How much fuck things can I store with that ! Hehe), a DVD Rom, a webcam, and a ball-less mouse with fancy flashing disco lights. =P Now I can see the applish green room n someone can see the infamous pink room. Haha.

It's a Fri today, I dun feel like working. Going to Seletar airbase to look at aircrafts later in the afternoon. That's abt the only thing I'm looking forward to at work. N then..... TGIF !!! (Thank God It's Friday!) I need some relaxation. I better rest adequately over the weekend if I dun want my head to burst on me anytime. A bit of a workout sounds appealing, my chest starting to feel a bit saggy. Vellene wants to play squash; may find my squash buddy afterall. That reminds to be seen, but I gotta get my own racquet n ball first.

It feels good to have money in the bank. Money I earned. But it's flowing out in large waves as soon as I gotten them. Spent a bomb on my comp stuffs, gotta pay my hotel bills, blah blah blah. Also not forgetting the constant trickle that leaks..... cab fares !! Argh.. Damn this place, y must it be in such a location. (Bird dun lay egg place, as Eugene would say)

But b4 all that..... what am I gonna do tonite? Shall it be boardgames?? lantern viewing at Chinese Garden? Or maybe re-amassing my collection of songs at home.

Salsa Mania

Sth's happening to me. I can't focus my eyes n see n there's a perpetual pounding in my cranium when I'm tired. I see patches of black (or God knows what colours) when I try to focus, similar to when u've been staring at the sun or lightbulb for a while n then try to look at sth after that. Am I not getting enough sleep or drinking enough water? Or is it the effect of the China cigs? Or have I just been staring at the bloody comp for too long? My head's splitting n the pain twitches when I sneeze or cough. I better blog sth b4 I die.

I went for Wed Salsa class this week with Lewis n Qixiao cos Lewis can't make it on Mon. It's a rush as the time's at 630pm instead of Mon's 730pm. My tots as I crashed the Wed class:

"Y oh y, did I choose the Mon class???"

This class easily doubles the no. of babes in Mon's class. (Mon's class has only got 2, excluding Qixiao, so it isn't really that hard to double them actually) The instructor's a babe in the first place, though Lewis thinks our faggoty instructor does a better job. Ruth's been circulating an email to organise an outing to Union Square that nite. We declined to go intially, but then just decide to drop by n have a look. 6 bucks cover charge inclusive of a drink. Y not? Beats any normal clubs anyday. We did run into Ruth n gang at Union Square, n we hang ard together. We left at abt 10pm cos Qixiao's got a curfew.

Ming Xing Ou Xiang !

My blogging has been a bit not up to date recently. By rite I shd be writing abt sth that happened now; (aarrrgghhhh!!! Forgot the comma button is spoilt !!!) not sth that happened a week back. But last week's event was a bit too interesting to leave out. Ming Xing Ou Xiang !

Was supposed to go out with Michi on the Sunday following my Shanghai trip. She asked me to meet her at J8 cos her sis is trying out for the Ming Xing Ou Xiang. I made my way to the 3rd floor of J8 to find Michi; who was standing rite at the front of the barricade. So here's 2 overage guy n gal mingling among all the other little kiddies to catch a glimpse of the audition.

I just lost my mood to blog. To be continued...

Ok, I'm back. Lost my mood after being slammed yet again. Seriously, I dun even know y i bother trying to explain. Take it whichever way u want it. If u can't understand, then u dun know me. I'll be the bad guy then. Everyone feels I'm always the bad guy, what's the harm of being one again? Baddie. Well, then again, nobody really knows me. Even I doubt if I really know myself sometimes.

Sorry abt the Ming Xing Ou Xiang. Not really in the mood to talk abt it now. Just for the record, her sis din manage to get thru. Few did anyway. I was there for the whole afternoon n they chose a grand total of 3 participants who advance.

I attended Jason's wedding lunch yest. I could feel the atmosphere in the air. The feeling of love as they walked down the aisle. Well, even for a player like Jason. I guess marriage really surpasses all of that. For now at least.

As I looked at the gang of bro for Jason yest, most of them have a stable gf. Hanxi & Tricia. Jason & Jasmine (married). Jianyu & Xuemei. James & Yvonne. Ken & Stacey. Benny & Joey. Dun u pple think that I wouldn't want a stable relationship n settle down? I am flippant in my attitude towards gals, cos I refuse to commit till I'm sure she is the one. Or till I'm really crazy over her. I only wana treasure the one that I really like. The one that I will end up with. Is it all that bad???

Shanghai Grand

Just take a look at what kind of comments my blog's been tagged with. What is this, man ! Hell, spam exist in blog tags even.

Anyway, I'm just gonna talk abt my Shanghai trip. This being my 1st biz trip abroad, I was kinda excited even when it was just 2 days b4 the date that I was informed. We took SQ flight n I was looking round to see if I could spot any stewardess I know. Seems I do know quite a few - Cuixia, Jasmine, Tricia, Enping, etc. In the end I spotted none, but there was this stewardess who looked pretty good and provide excellent service; Jeannie, I think that's her name.

1st Day
Half of Wed was spent travelling and it was already evening time when we reached the hotel. Rendezvous Merry Hotel Shanghai. The name does sound a bit sleazy, but it was kinda posh. Think 4 stars. We spent the first nite exploring Nanjing road, which leads to the fabled Shanghai Tan. Only thing is they called it Wai Tan there, aka the Bund. Actually it's just sth like the Esplanade area back home. Just plenty of high rise buildings by the bay. Though the neon lights made it rather spectacular. Got this sharp dick-shaped building which I dunno the name but think u all will know which one I'm refering to. Nanjing Rd was pretty much like Orchard Rd and that is inclusive of the price range. The only really cheap things there were CDs and food. We had dinner at some chinese restaurant, but we have difficulty in ordering the food even. (We would go on to have fish and toufu for the rest of our meals in shanghai, cos my boss' partial vegetarian) Not that I'm complaining, I like toufu n fish too. keke.

2nd Day
Ok, work starts on the 2nd day. We have 2 corresponding companies at Shanghai and I shall Call them Company S and Company C. Company C has been giving us problems aplenty ever since the start of the program, and the purpose of this trip was actually to sort out some issues which we failed to communicate over the phone or mail. It was dumb actually, because the communication breakdown was due to the language proficiency disparity between the 2 parties, though both sides speak mandarin. We spent the day running to n fro our warehouse at the domestic airport to Company C. My first meeting with the fabled xia lan Mr X, (our correspondence from Company C) but end up din really get to see much of him. Most of the time we were dealing with a this Miss Y. She turn out to be quite an attractive lass, but much too vivacious for most sg guys. Furthermore, she was wearing granny panties which kinda turns me off.

3rd Day
The 3rd day was spent dealing with Comapny S. They have this William Hung look-alike as our correspondence, n the pple at Company S r generally much nicer. We have 3 store personnel on rotating shifts running our warehouse. I met the 1st of them on the 2nd day, n incidentally, he is the bro-in-law of Mr X. So kinda like a spy? He treated us like we were some VIP though. The 2nd storeman was a moustachio/bearded guy from Inner Mongolia, whose reason for having this kinda look is cos his idol is some big beard fellow. My mind conjured up the image of Genghis Khan when I tot of that. The 3rd storeman was actually a lady. The 2nd n 3rd storeman r actually uni grads in China, while the 1st guy was employed as a personal favor to Mr X actually.

4th Day
the 4th day was also going home day. Time seemed to pass exceptionally fast while I'm in Shanghai. I remember looking out my hotel window every nite, trying to take in as much of the view as possible; to lock the image in my mind. This is my first visit to China in any case. No signs of any known stewardness on my way back either.

I went to snoop ard the duty free zone in Changi Airport when I landed. I met a sales assistant by the name of Lorraine while I shop for perfumes. She looks a bit like Daphne, and she was very friendly. We talked as though we r frens as I seeked her help on what perfumes to get. Well, it could all be part of her PR skills as an sales assistant but still it felt good. I tot of asking her for her contacts but the situation looked like it isn't too apt;I just seeked her help to buy 2 perfumes for 2 gals, and she's got the understanding that it's 2 significant gals. So it wouldn't reflect too nicely on me had I asked her for her contacts? I know the lot of u reading this would simply be thinking, "Yeah rite, that's just so U, isn't it?". Well anyway, just to summarise in 1 line - My balls failed me.