Tuesday, October 26, 2004

I Called Princess!!!

On fri nite, I called princess for the first time. Actually, she sort of ask me to call her at nite when we were still chatting on msn in sch. So I decided to sacrifice my 1 hr of bikini babe time on chn 8 and call princess instead. It's been some time since i chatted with a gal on the phone. The first conversation was still alrite, with just a bit of awkward pauses in between. But all in all, I lost none of my old magic. =P

We chatted in english mostly thru-out but I find that she's effectively bilingual too. Her voice was a bit of a surprise to me though. It sounded a bit sultry, slightly low pitch n seductive. Not the girlish giggly voice i had expected. Our conversation lasted not very long, but it was a good start nonetheless.

I called her again last nite n this time we had a long chat, from 11+ till 4+ in the morning. She asked me to guess her birthday date n i got it rite on the first try. Bingo! 16th of Nov. Fate? hehe
She wanted me to cook for her on our first date. For that, I actually consulted mum on how to cook rice n today i learnt how to make pork cutlet n fry an egg. What's happening to me?? haha

We arranged our first date on the coming fri. She wanted to catch the Musical Fountain performance at Sentosa. Which wasn't too hard a task. Now the countdown to the big day begins. However, I haven heard from her all day today. She's suppose to take her hp for repair, which i think may be the reason y she did not reply my sms n call. That sounds like a likely reason, but in my mind I keep having negative tots that she's gonna play me out after all.

I really hope that this can be a new start for me. So pls let her be real.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

1st Driving Experience

Had my first drive after I got my license. Went back to sch to study at 12am on wed nite with Hanxi. We park at canteen B n studied till abt 2 plus then pack up. After that I did the driving on the trip home. Was quite easy since no cars on the expressway also, but still got a bit of jitters. And with Hanxi beside me with his non-stop comments doesn't help much either.

Meiting called me yest, asking if i know fo any good private driving instructor. She stopped for a yr after she failed her tp a 2nd time. The way she fail her 2nd try came as quite a shock to me - she drove the entire test inn 2nd gear!!!! I can imagine what Hanxi would say abt it had he heard this. Even I couldn't really comprehend, how her instructor nv warn her abt not changing to appropriate gears. Anyway, I advised her to switch over to learn at BBDC, but i think the change of policy at BBDC would mean it's much less trainee-frenly than private instuctors.

Last nite as I lay on my bed attempting to get to sleep, I tot of asking princess out on the coming sat. I wanted to call her n talk to her, haven talk to her on the phone b4. Dunno whether it will be too rush, with only a day's notice. Most prob she wun be free also. And what's gonna happen when we go out? Will everything go nice n smooth as I had tot? Will we have probs regarding communications, frequency, etc? To put it simply, can we click?

Haven gone on a date that puts me so much on my nerves for a long while. I'm scared it wun be the natural me that turns up, and I end up have to put on a false front or sth. It usually happens when I attach too much significance to the date.

Monday, October 18, 2004

My Princess

I've been talking to princess everyday for almost 2 weeks already. I feel myself liking her gradually, so much so that I've slowly no longer hope to see ebby online.

But somehow, deep inside me, I have a feeling that she's gonna play me out 1 day also. She still refuse to give me her number. Maybe i'm paranoid due to what ebby did. Princess seem quite genuine, but so was ebby.

Anyway, I wun be able to ask her out for abt another mth or so. What happens during this time still remains to be seen. But nomatter which is the case, I've prepared myself to deal with the worst case scenario.

Sunday, October 17, 2004

2046

I went to watch 2046 with Lewis today. Can't exactly say i like the show, but neither do i dislike it. Its another of those kind of artistic chinese movie, without a plot and ends suddenly, leaving pple with their own interpretations.

Well, actually part of me thinks the show is crap, while another part sort of appreciate the meaning the show. I guess its the right-brain versus the left-brain again. All along I've actually been more inclined towards arts n literary subjects, but ever since JC where i decide to go into science stream have I became more of a man of numbers n figures.

Now i'm sort of like a neither-here-nor-there person. Guess that makes me a better person also.
Science novels always interest me, like those by Michael Crichton n Dan Brown. But Dan Brown mixes in his novels a great deal of historic informations of arts, which makes it even more alluring for me.




Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Rude Awakening

Feel rather lousy today. Well, finally what princess said convinced me not to put too much faith into online relationships. Sort of like a rude awakening, from the past few weeks where I was gaga over ebby, and recently princess.

It's strange how i seem to be more interested in online frens than in the real pple ard me. I guess that's where the sense of novelty come from, pple whom I have yet to meet. Anyway, I think I sort of woke up already, after what princess told me.

Now life's seem a bit more monotone, though nothing's changed, just that i no longer have the feeling of anticipation and hope, to see someone online.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Something Stupid

This is for u ebby.
If I ever date u.
Something Stupid

I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time
to spend an evening with me
And if we go to someplace to dance, I know that there's a chance
you won't be leaving with me

And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
and have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
like "i love you"

I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies
you heard the night before
And though it's just a line for you, for me that's true
it never seemed so right before

I practise everyday to find some clever line to say
to make the meaning come true
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
and I'm alone with you

The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red
and oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
like "I love you"

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Ebby, Irene, Princess, Eye Candy

It's almost 6am in the morning, and i'm stoning in fron of the comp. Felt awful after watching yi tian tu long ji last nite. A bit like hangover like that, feel like my head's falling off my shoulders. So i tried lying on my bed n here I am now, awake at 6am in the morning.

Tried submitting the M141 project thru edventure just now but the damn thing keep hanging. How the fuck they expect us to do a proper online submission if the damn sch server keep giving us such probs? Vivi msg n said the same thing, guess i'm not the only one having probs.

I was staying in sch lib to study again on fri, n again I saw my eye candy. Seems like she too is staying back almost everyday, but she's with the Shawn Yue everytime. Seems she has also started to notice me, cos we just seem to pass by each other so coincidentally. I think my luck's at work here again. Do I really have this kind of luck??!! Anyway, maybe shd try to give a smile or sth the next time we see each other.

Princess went Bangkok over the weekends, kinda missing her a little. She invited me to view her online photos. I wonder if we'll ever meet up. I guess not in the near future, when the exams r imminent. Maybe during the holz can go out. She seems like a rich gal, can just go Bangkok for shopping trip, and used to having bf who drives. Is this putting some form of pressure on me?? I wonder y it shd bother me. =

Caught ebby online while I was in lib on thur. She read my mail when i told her that i mailed her. She was on her way out for jogging then, and told me we'll talk abt it when she's back. I dunno what to expect from her, another laughing-it-off and ridicule me session?? I think that's most prob what will happen, I shdn't expect too much from someone like her, isn't it? = Anyway, she told me irene's broken up with her bf. No wonder haven been seeing her ard these days.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Eye Candy

Today I saw my new eye candy in sch again. She's wearing track pants n a white spag top. She has got to be one of the prettiest gal i ever see in ntu. Her eyes are really captivating.

The first time I saw her was on the mrt. Can't remember which stop she boarded, shd be along the north-line. Then we took 179 to sch together n when i alighted at the canteen A bus-stop but she din, i deduced she must be from NBS. But then subsequently I saw her in North Spine a lot of times.

Met her another time when I walked to sch after tuition at Terence's place. That time i saw her outside the comp shop, walkign towards canteen B wth another gal.

Another time was in canteen A, but that time she was with a guy. This ugly version of Shawn Yue lookalike. Saw them together a few times after that. I presume he must be the bf, though they just stop short of holding hands.

Anyway, till now still has NIL info of her. Dun know her name, her fac, her year, dun know whether attached or not.

I guess it doesn't really matter also. Eye candy will always be eye candy.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Fundamentals Of Heat & Mass Transfer

I slept thru the M492 n M462 lecs today. In my bed. And i skipped the whole of fri lessons last week. So much for being a renewed guy after the sem break. Still skipping my lessons like last time, if not more.

But seriously, who can understand lecturers like Li Lin & Kim Wangdo. Not to mention the suspender-man.

Finally bought my first textbook of the sem. Or shall I say finally have money to buy my textbook. Fundamentals Of Heat And Mass Transfer. Spent 3 hrs in the lib to cover what is sufficient to do tut 1. How efficient.

Been smoking a lot lately. Sometimes will have craving for a smoke when i'm out of cigs. This doesn't look good.

Think I better see less of vivi from now on. This is getting nowhere. No more dyeing of hair.

Sunday, October 03, 2004

A Week Of Waiting

a week of futile online wait.

its been a week since i last talk to u.

think i'll go crazy soon if this carries on.

I even tot of going down zouk to look for u tonite.

y am i so distracted by u.

i dun understand it myself.

i'll wait.

Disturbing Dream

i had a hell of a dream last nite, or rather this morning, cos i think it was already morning time when i had the dream, though still sleeping.

I dreamt of min.

In the dream, i dunno where we were, but the scene seems like an airport. There was a man blaring on a mircophone in the background and we were in a sort of a lounge. I found her in a depressed state sitting on the sofa, with ice-cream on her face. She was expressionless, like how she always were after we quarrel.

I took out a piece of tissue n help her wipe the ice-cream of her face, n she started sobbing. She said Alvin found out that she kept a sms of mine which she did not know was sent by me. So apparently they had a quarrel cos of that n he left her in this state. I started crying also as i wipe her face, seeing how sad she was. The crying part seem so real. I could never bear to see her sad. I wonder if i was crying as i lay sleeping in my bed also. i suspected i did.

I never tot i could feel this much emotions in a dream. For someone whom i had wanted to leave behind n move on.